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Surviving the Day

I started the day with an empty page in my bullet journal, and filled it with tasks as the day went on – the kinds of things you would expect after being out of the loop for a couple of weeks – timesheets to fill out, documents to read, emails to reply to, calls to make.

I admitted to somebody towards the end of the day that I really hadn’t been looking forward to returning, and couldn’t really explain why. I suppose I had grown used to the slower pace of life – it turns out sitting on your arse all day and getting nothing much done is strangely addictive.

I talked to my other half this evening about feeling trapped – stuck in a job that I don’t always like as much as I once did, but having no exit route. I pay the majority of the bills. I keep a roof over our head. I can’t take chances.

Anyway.

I’ve already promised myself to go for a run before work in the morning. Another step back towards normality. I’ll have to get back on the bike again soon too – perhaps alternate running and cycling each day.

I survived the day. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it might be. I got over myself. Go me. I’m now sitting in the dark of the study, wondering about heading to bed soon, listening to Cutting Crew on Spotify. Every time I hear it now, I think of the scene in LEGO Batman when Bruce Wayne meets Barbara Gordon for the first time.

By Jonathan

Developer, Writer, Runner

3 replies on “Surviving the Day”

Two great things in there–one, you’ve resolved to run and cycle–which will help. And two, you talked about feeling trapped to your other half. Putting those feelings into words helps to make them manageable. We have all stretched our tolerances from time to time–reality being what it is, there’s a roof over well-loved heads and food to consider. But–talking about it, managing those feelings, sharing the feelings as well as the responsibilities is an enormous first step. And it’s always nice to know you’re pulling together on the same team, and more or less in the same directions.

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I think people often feel as though they’re trapped and there are no other options. If you’re really unhappy with your present job, now is the perfect time to look at comparable options. Options that pay similar that could get you into a new environment. You’ve got the pay cheque coming in now, you’re not worried about where your next pay cheque is coming from, so now is a great time to start looking. You don’t have to tell anyone but your spouse that you’re looking. But, it might give you something to look forward to?

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